Lil one

this is my lil one =)

When I was pregnant with Ayesha... I had an ambition- to breastfeed my baby when she is born. Initially I targeted for 6 months (because I only managed to breastfeed Aimaan 2/12 months and already mixed formula powder when he is 1 month old-> feel very guilty about that!)

I read, make mental preparation on how to breastfeed baby, search, ask my good friend on how she did it, attend class, and yeah...the most important thing is mentally prepared! With the facility I had (which i store room in my office), I have exclusively breastfed Ayesha for 1 year-> without mixing any formula milk. I feel proud, syukur..despite some people still dont have knowledge about breastfeeding. After one year, again, i want to stretch the period to 18 months, but the store room facility was taken, (they want to make way for renovation) and somehow it affected my schedule & and then I have start to give her goat milk-during day time and continue giving mommy's milk at night.

Alhamdulillah, managed to give on that basis until she reached 2 years... And when turned two, I had a problem, to wean her. Some people will put few things in the nipple - so when the baby wants to drink the milk, they will taste funny and don't want to drink anymore. Somehow, I don't feel comfortable doing that.

What i did:

1) tell her that she's a big girl and 'amma's susu habis' ..but for 2 months she's refusing to accept that she can't drink the milk anymore

2) tried to distract her form drinking milk- give her over stuff like vitamin, snacks & avoid to sit down with her (it worlds sometimes)

3) tried to give her fresh milk- mot of the time will give Aimaan, so she also wants to drink it.

4) get doctor's consultation- doctor said, we have to be firm with her, i.e. no means no. (well, i do sometimes, and it resulted tantrums-> very over acting tantrums, but it is cute anyway)

and now..it shows some improvement.. she slowly start to understand that 'amma susu habis'

but..the thing is...i missed the attachment feeling.

But anyhow , just feel great that I managed to breastfed my daughter until she is 2 years old- despite that i am working mum. Alhamdulillah. =)

2011....2012

2011 coming to its end!! and people start talking about 2012 resolution... and personally..i dont beleive in having a long term resolution...because i have never achieve it =P

anyhow..for my personaldevelopment this is what I want to achieve in year 2012, insya Allah:

1) go to gym at least twice a month
2) to memorize short surahs from juz 30
3) to train Aimaan to love solat- not to feel that its a hard thing to do
4) to read at least a book
5) to get my ideal weight- yes i was underweght
6) to be more healthy- mind & body
7) to attend educational program which they have muslims scholars around
8) to improve my cooking
9) to get good standing in my work
10) to improve myself-in the eye of Allah

in 2011..

I keep thinking what to write to make sure I can actively blog..until I read someone's blog what she did for this year 2011.

Well,thanks to her idea... for me to start of, this is some of what happened this year.. let me list 10...

1) We enrolled our son into Islamic kindergarden (after 2 years in normal kindie). When we enrolled him, there was some dissatisfaction from some family members on why we want to send him there..and not why to other conventional kindie. Syukur to Allah, my hubby didn't object my intention, well he also agreed that our son also need education in Islam. Well, what I must say, Alhamdulillah.. after a year, he knows rukun solat, can recite 3 Quls, Alfatihah, few doas (before & after eat, before & after entering toilet, etc) few short surahs, and he fasted for 17 days in Ramdahan! The outcome - Alhamdulillah.. hope he will be given hidayah to ease his learning in Islamic values and other subjects as well. And we feel that we did a right decision to send him there.

2) We had a splendid holiday- an east coast tour from KL-> Pahang->Terengganu-> Kelantan>Perak and back to KL. It was tiring, but it was fun. The thing that we did enjoy is the scenery along the way, kids tantrum, food, meet up with my cousin, beach holiday. Conclusion: It was awesome! Kids & us enjoyed it too.

3) A test for our family. Hubby, Aimaan & Ayesha was infected with dengue fever. Thank God I was not infected. It was really mentally & physically tough. And really, it was a challenging time for us, my parents. With Aimaan crying for the itchiness the whole night, he couldn't sleep & we couldn't sleep. It was really a tense moment. Ya Allah..only Allah knows how we feel. Stayed in hospital for 8 days.. (Hubby warded for 3 days, Aimaan 5 days & Ayesha 8 days). Pity little girl also don't know what's going on. Before they were admitted, we went to the emergency twice- the fever didn't subsided at all, and kids were send back home. Alhamdulillah- all of them recovered and may Allah protect us from this calamity again.

4) I tried my luck for a job (no, i didn't job hunt) - didn't really expect it, but I got the job. I tendered, again, I didn't expect my bosses will do the counter offer me. And I accept the counter offer. Maybe its written that I should work for few more years here, I suppose. Well, coincidently, another colleague of mine got job offer & he was also countered- offered. This lead to what i call- the worst experience in my working life. I cried and had a very bad headache because of this. Think its not worth writing about it. Let it flow out from my memories. But now, i am not talking to this person who scratched my working record. Don't.Care.

5) My hubby and I registered for hajj this year. Given date is 2040. Hope Allah ease our intention to perform hajj at young age. and this give me an idea..that we should save up money for our children so that the can perform hajj when they are young. Few of my friends performed hajj this year and this really inspires me to save more for hajj. Insya Allah... Harap dipermudahkan untuk menunaikan haji.

6) I was fortunate to know a well known Muslim family from USA. maybe blessed. Learned a lot from them and hope Allah give my family chance to get know more Muslim scholar families and be close to them.

7) My lil cutie pie is such a cutie. She can talk, can read, recognize letters (alphabets & hija'yah), colors, sing & dance. (also scream, showing creative tantrums , and a trickster) Masha Allah...Thank you Allah for the wonderful gifts- Aimaan & Ayesha.

8) I want to learn something.. I've registered for Arabic class, but till now there's no call from the centre, for a class group. I've surveyed the masters class, but can't decided what I want to take. I just need to learn something- my BFF is gonna obtain her PHD soon, insya Allah. It inspire me a lot. I just need to learn something.

9) I start to enjoy cooking. Especially when my kids & hubby love it, made me to cook at home more frequent- with love. Secret for a good food, cook with love & without anger & ikhlas . and besides that, if possible take wudu', cover your hair & do zikr while cooking. As for me, i will also make sure my nails are short. Cleanliness is the most importance.

10) I learned not to accept every knowledge/stories blindly. I also in learning process, not to entertain gossips, and I also learning to be more patience with my kids!!

Another Update :)

it's been quite sometime :)

ohh.. how i need some consistency in doing something! Istiqamah!

We just khatan Aimaan last week. Alhamdulilllah.. all went well and he's 85% healed..and he started running around. :)

We had some small doa selamat the night before, and poor boy he doesn't know what is 'sunat/khatan' is.. Told him the next morning- what is khatan and why boys need to do it, he started to feel scared. (And actually I felt that was the hardest thing I have ever done being a mom). Consoled him..tell him that he must do it when he is small so that when he row up, he won't feel pain.

Hubby followed Aimaan into the OT room. The procedure supposed to be a quick one. But we waited for more than an hour! It seems the surgeon arrived late. But overall, everything went well, Alhamdulillah :)

After 7 days, he is already running, jumping and screaming.. (back to normal).

And now, my next task is to ask him to be firm in Solat..I need the consistency performing solat..and hope the same for my family.

DOA AGAR ANAK2 MENGERJAKAN SOLAT
SURAH IBRAHIM (14) AYAT 40

رَبِّ اجْعَلْنِى مُقِيمَ الصَّلوةِ وَمِن ذُرِّيَتِى رَبَّنَا وَتَقَبَّلْ دُعَآءِ

“O my Lord! Make me one who performs Salah, and (also) from my offspring, our Lord! And accept my invocation.”

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