Conversation with my lil one

This morning, I had a wonderful conversation with my 16 month old girl while on my way sending her to my mom’s house.

She saw a bird flying on the sky and here is how the conversation goes:

Ayesha: Ma, why bird up there?

Me: Because bird is flying

A: Why bird flying?

Me: Because bird wants to find food

A: Why find food?

M: Because the bird is hungry

A: Why hungry?

M: Because bird’s tummy wants food

A: Why bird hungry food? (my translation :why bird is hungry and wants to find food)

M: Because the bird needs energy

A: why energy?

M: because…(thinking hard) bird needs energy to fly! (I was curious what she gonna ask next)

A: Oooo…bird fly ( my translation: oooo..thats why bird fly)

Masha Allah..cutie! Pray that my kids keep asking question and pray we have patience & proper answer for them!

something in my mind!

today... our family's doctor' daughter passed away due to pancreatic cancer. it its after 3 months she has been diagnosed with the disease.

when visiting the jenaza, met a lady..who is telling all the good things the Allahyarham did. never talk rude, she's been liked by everyone (Alhamdulillah). but she keep on stressing that Allahyarham never insulted anyone. Her house was full of people & many people visited the janaza.  Its very rare to meet people like that these days.  I never met her personally, but i had a good feeling that she is a very nice person based on her parents character. They are really nice, masya Allah.  May Allah grant paradise for Allahyarham.

I start to ponder..am i gonna leave a good memories to people around me when i pass away? Are they gonna remember me based on my good deed or bad deed? Or have I ever insulted them? And if i pass away, is my parents gonna be praised for having a daughter like me ? Nauzubillah for all the bad intentions & bad attitude.  Are my friends & relatives gonna visit my janaza? I don't know how i actually communicate with them.. i hope i didn't insult them & anyone.

Allah is so Great & Maha Perahsia. Some people who have disease known, can live longer and  someone who is healthy can be just return to Allah within seconds. There must be a reason behind all these.

I fainted at the monorail station the other day. More like 'pitam' .  what if  that time i didnt wake up anymore. What if... Allah helped me and made me realize that who is the person & people around me that really concern on what happen to me and  ready to leave their commitment and come to save me (literally). really  I can feel that and really feel appreciative to Allah! May Allah bless them.