What will concern you most? The behavior or the word that certain people use?

I am very particular on how people speak, and choices of word they use. I think most of the people out there too.

I hope I am not part of the group of people that using bad words. And I really hope not to be within these type of people. it's really damaging. Your perception towards them and people's perception towards you. Oh.. Forget about people's perception. Let's look for Allah's perception & mercy. May we are not part of them.

And I really hope that my kids won't have the ability of using bad & insulting words that really can leave a deep or minor scar to other people. I have felt it, and the scar won't heal very fast.

way back in 2009

i actually drafted this in 2009! some of "Aimaan said the darndest thing!"


1. I’m eating ice cream. Barney says its good and best.

2. I’m watching stuart little: “I don’t want to watch this. Mouse cannot talk, mouse only eat cheese and mouse have four legs”

3. Give him tosai instead of capati, but told him it’s a capati “I want capati with the black spots”

4. went to my mom’s place for lunch. I dropped my kids there and went out to do some groceries and banking stuff. He was supposed to have his lunch, but he didn’t until I came back. When I asked him why he didn’t have his lunch? He said,” because I miss you mommy”

5. bought him a sand art at The Curve, and while paying he was so happy and he said “ I love you mommy, thank you mommy”

Kids

My son was having fever and while settling him on bed with the wet towel ( to reduce the heat), my lil one wants to be treated the same. (she recovered after having fever in the morning)

so i snapped the picture of both... cute!

Exam Result

So Aimaan has completed his 1st term at primary school.. And they had mid-term exam.
Overall result was good. We were grateful that he did well for his exam- though I'm really sure that Aimaan doesn't know the meaning of exam. We just hope that he gained some useful knowledge( and also limy yg berkat). In our opinion, he should know & understand what he learnt & not just 'know' for the sake knowing & passing the exam.
& yes there was open day for primary school & Kafa. Overall feedback was good- the socialize with his friend.. The only improvement that he need is reduce the # of going to toilets (just to wash hand) & walking in the class although the teacher was there & teaching!! And yeah.. Talk a lot in the class- which is nothing new :). I don't feel like stopping him from asking questions & I just hope he can understand for what he was curious about. Yes, as a mother , I hope he'll get the best & pray that he will be modest always.

another splendid view

took this picture at Darling Harbour- Sydney on 26th May 2012
the skies... Subhanallah!

Oh my lil one!

When we walked out from Wild Life-Sydney the other day, my lil one took a lollipop and walked out. I saw it, and took away from her and there the drama begins! She screamed, and I went to consoled her, but she still want the lollipop. Then I just carried her away and go out from the shop. She loosened her body and sill want to go back to the shop. And I said no. (please take note they she dislikes when we said No) And she started to lie down on the floor & bang her legs.

And I know she won’t calm down if I stay there, I pretend to walk away from her. Not even 5 steps, men told me that I left my daughter behind. And I told him that ‘ I ‘m not leaving her. I am just ignoring her tantrum’. He laughed and I feel ashamed. I went back to my lil one, carried her start to walk fast. The old man who was sitting on the bench laughed at us.

Well, u may ask it’s just a lollipop, and what’s the big deal about it. The thing is, she had so much of sugar-based food since morning. And I am not comfortable in letting my daughter/kids to have some more. I can give them some, but I have to say enough once I think they have too much.

Well, lucky I am a tourist there and they wont remember me anymore….

15.5

A year older, a year wiser and nearer to meet Allah. :)

It was a blessed day. Got surprised bithday flower & cakes from my best buddies! And also handbag from my colleagues. And yet, my hubs forgot to wish me until 10-ish... and by having a wallet misplace drama..hmmm.. Alhamdulillah..he found it.

Overall, it was blessed one & I know i am surrounded by lovely families.

And i also learnt (and why it took me soo long to realise) that 15.5 is also Nakba day. Where Palestenians were expelled from their own homeland by the Israelis. And, after 33 years, I just got to know and it happens in year 1948.

Lets pray for their freedom & Insya Allah, Palestine will be free!

Another beautiful morning...

don't you think the Creator of this beautiful sky is simply amazing? Subhanallah....
took this picture on my way to work this morning

Knowledge

Have you ever feel when you engaged in a discussion or when listening to a talk, you feel like your knowledge is very minimal compare to them?

I had few discussion with certain people & attended few talks before this. These made me feel like I have lots of things to learn, to understand. And the current knowledge that I have, or already thought is sufficient , is not sufficient. Really,not sufficient.

there's a say saying that don't say u know about unless you are really sure. if u are not sure, it's better to say ' I don't know' or keep quite.

When you thought I wasn't looking

Shared by one of my favorite Mufti in his FB, this thing is really good!

‎"When you thought I wasn't looking. "

A message every adult should read because children watch you and do as you do, not as you say.

When you thought I wasn’t looking I saw you hang my first painting on the refrigerator, and I immediately wanted to paint another one.

When you thought I wasn’t looking I saw you feed a stray cat, and I learned that it was good to be kind to animals.

When you thought I wasn’t looking I saw you make my favorite cake for me, and I learned that little things can be the special things in life.

When you thought I wasn’t looking I heard you say a prayer, and I knew that there is a God I could always talk to, and I learned to trust in Him.

When you thought I wasn’t looking I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick, and I learned that we all have to help take care of each other.

When you thought I wasn’t looking I saw you take care of our house and everyone in it, and I learned we have to take care of what we are given.

When you thought I wasn’t looking I saw how you handled your responsibilities, even when you didn’t feel good, and I learned that I would have to be responsible when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn’t looking I saw tears come from your eyes, and I learned that sometimes things hurt, and it’s all right to cry.

When you thought I wasn’t looking I saw that you cared, and I wanted to be everything that I could be.

When you thought I wasn’t looking I learned most of life’s lessons that I needed to know: to be a good and productive person when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn’t looking I looked at you and wanted to say,’ Thanks for all the things I saw when you thought I wasn’t looking.

By Anon.
(I have pasted as received from a friend)

Children learns from by witnessing, and not necessarily listening.

Nature Pics

Nowadays, I just love to take pictures of nature, it is just sooo magnificently beautiful, captured my eyes and start to think who is the most Smartest, Magnificent, Creative & Powerful... Only Him can create all these... Allah swt.

And with the smart phone with me (Alhamdulillah) , I just can snap these beautiful view anywhere and anytime I want (provided there's is battery :) )

check out some of the pictures I took..

sunset boulevard - Kota Damansara

rainbow- Ipoh

Beautiful Sunday morning- Kota Damansara

Blogger Apps

yeah! at last.. installed blogger apps in my phone! can blog more frequently here 😄

Conversation with my lil one

This morning, I had a wonderful conversation with my 16 month old girl while on my way sending her to my mom’s house.

She saw a bird flying on the sky and here is how the conversation goes:

Ayesha: Ma, why bird up there?

Me: Because bird is flying

A: Why bird flying?

Me: Because bird wants to find food

A: Why find food?

M: Because the bird is hungry

A: Why hungry?

M: Because bird’s tummy wants food

A: Why bird hungry food? (my translation :why bird is hungry and wants to find food)

M: Because the bird needs energy

A: why energy?

M: because…(thinking hard) bird needs energy to fly! (I was curious what she gonna ask next)

A: Oooo…bird fly ( my translation: oooo..thats why bird fly)

Masha Allah..cutie! Pray that my kids keep asking question and pray we have patience & proper answer for them!

something in my mind!

today... our family's doctor' daughter passed away due to pancreatic cancer. it its after 3 months she has been diagnosed with the disease.

when visiting the jenaza, met a lady..who is telling all the good things the Allahyarham did. never talk rude, she's been liked by everyone (Alhamdulillah). but she keep on stressing that Allahyarham never insulted anyone. Her house was full of people & many people visited the janaza.  Its very rare to meet people like that these days.  I never met her personally, but i had a good feeling that she is a very nice person based on her parents character. They are really nice, masya Allah.  May Allah grant paradise for Allahyarham.

I start to ponder..am i gonna leave a good memories to people around me when i pass away? Are they gonna remember me based on my good deed or bad deed? Or have I ever insulted them? And if i pass away, is my parents gonna be praised for having a daughter like me ? Nauzubillah for all the bad intentions & bad attitude.  Are my friends & relatives gonna visit my janaza? I don't know how i actually communicate with them.. i hope i didn't insult them & anyone.

Allah is so Great & Maha Perahsia. Some people who have disease known, can live longer and  someone who is healthy can be just return to Allah within seconds. There must be a reason behind all these.

I fainted at the monorail station the other day. More like 'pitam' .  what if  that time i didnt wake up anymore. What if... Allah helped me and made me realize that who is the person & people around me that really concern on what happen to me and  ready to leave their commitment and come to save me (literally). really  I can feel that and really feel appreciative to Allah! May Allah bless them.

Just read a wonderful article on " guarding our tounges" from Suhaibbwebb.com. Masha Allah...very beautiful.

What I like most is " Good, pure speech in this life is a cause of being admitted into Paradise because it is a sign of a good and pure heart. The words that appear on our tongues are only a manifestation of what is in our hearts".. Very true

And it's not easy to have a clean heart.. We r only human..But we can go towards having a clean heart. Nothing can save us in akhirah.. It's all depends on our amal,soleh kids & charity. But again read this : Sesungguhnya perkataan yang baik dan doa buat seseorang muslim lebih baik daripada sedekah yang diikutinya celaan.

May Allah include us in his blessing and people that have clean hearts

few interesting things happened for the past few weeks. One of the interesting thing happened is the opportunity to meet up with few parents (at Aimaan school) and exchange knowledge/view about their son.

On the first day, I saw one of the parents who gave her business card to the class teacher and told the teacher that her son doesn't know to speak Malay at all. Well, I just smiled cause, Aimaan was like that before and only took him 1 year to learn Malay (After we send him to Islamic kindie) and Alhamdulillah..he coping well with the language. On the 2nd day, I went early for the recess time and got a chance to speak to her.Again, she told about her son. And told her not to worry since my son was like that. And somehow our conversations goes deeper into reading Quran, tafsir/solat etc. And truly I am amazed that she really loves to read Quran, and she make sure she read few surahs' like Yaasin, Waqiah etc everyday. She really believed that if we spend time to Allah (solar,read Quran, give charity -> Quran), everything is possible. She shared her experience where she have to close a big deal, and it was amazingly soo easy for her, she just find some time to read yassin and some other ayats (and of course solah) before the meeting, and she said the deal is closed within 5 minutes. And believe me, she can tell me, what the certain surah is for. And even she has a tool to listen to Quran. Well, one thing she is not in hijab. She said that her husband doesn't like her for her to wear hijab. Well, told her.. maybe it will take time & pray for her that her husband will terbuka hati for her to wear hijab. And another interesting thing..is when I open my Quran & read the tafsir of the ayah that I was reading- it was about 'Allah will give hidayah to whom he wants to give' -Surah Al-Anam. Subhanallah. That really answers my hidden doubt.

Another friend of mine- she was telling that her husband was not an avid Quran reader. But everyday she make an effort to listen to Quran reading and improve his reading (he started off with Yassin). And now, he can read well and trying to improve for the other surahs as well.

and my SIl...after she got back from Saudi-> we can see her looking more to ISlamic environment & education for her family. Again, it won't happen without Allah's hidayah. And we are the one who have to seek for His hidayah.

Well. if they can do, why don't we?

Right?

Lil one

this is my lil one =)

When I was pregnant with Ayesha... I had an ambition- to breastfeed my baby when she is born. Initially I targeted for 6 months (because I only managed to breastfeed Aimaan 2/12 months and already mixed formula powder when he is 1 month old-> feel very guilty about that!)

I read, make mental preparation on how to breastfeed baby, search, ask my good friend on how she did it, attend class, and yeah...the most important thing is mentally prepared! With the facility I had (which i store room in my office), I have exclusively breastfed Ayesha for 1 year-> without mixing any formula milk. I feel proud, syukur..despite some people still dont have knowledge about breastfeeding. After one year, again, i want to stretch the period to 18 months, but the store room facility was taken, (they want to make way for renovation) and somehow it affected my schedule & and then I have start to give her goat milk-during day time and continue giving mommy's milk at night.

Alhamdulillah, managed to give on that basis until she reached 2 years... And when turned two, I had a problem, to wean her. Some people will put few things in the nipple - so when the baby wants to drink the milk, they will taste funny and don't want to drink anymore. Somehow, I don't feel comfortable doing that.

What i did:

1) tell her that she's a big girl and 'amma's susu habis' ..but for 2 months she's refusing to accept that she can't drink the milk anymore

2) tried to distract her form drinking milk- give her over stuff like vitamin, snacks & avoid to sit down with her (it worlds sometimes)

3) tried to give her fresh milk- mot of the time will give Aimaan, so she also wants to drink it.

4) get doctor's consultation- doctor said, we have to be firm with her, i.e. no means no. (well, i do sometimes, and it resulted tantrums-> very over acting tantrums, but it is cute anyway)

and now..it shows some improvement.. she slowly start to understand that 'amma susu habis'

but..the thing is...i missed the attachment feeling.

But anyhow , just feel great that I managed to breastfed my daughter until she is 2 years old- despite that i am working mum. Alhamdulillah. =)

2011....2012

2011 coming to its end!! and people start talking about 2012 resolution... and personally..i dont beleive in having a long term resolution...because i have never achieve it =P

anyhow..for my personaldevelopment this is what I want to achieve in year 2012, insya Allah:

1) go to gym at least twice a month
2) to memorize short surahs from juz 30
3) to train Aimaan to love solat- not to feel that its a hard thing to do
4) to read at least a book
5) to get my ideal weight- yes i was underweght
6) to be more healthy- mind & body
7) to attend educational program which they have muslims scholars around
8) to improve my cooking
9) to get good standing in my work
10) to improve myself-in the eye of Allah

in 2011..

I keep thinking what to write to make sure I can actively blog..until I read someone's blog what she did for this year 2011.

Well,thanks to her idea... for me to start of, this is some of what happened this year.. let me list 10...

1) We enrolled our son into Islamic kindergarden (after 2 years in normal kindie). When we enrolled him, there was some dissatisfaction from some family members on why we want to send him there..and not why to other conventional kindie. Syukur to Allah, my hubby didn't object my intention, well he also agreed that our son also need education in Islam. Well, what I must say, Alhamdulillah.. after a year, he knows rukun solat, can recite 3 Quls, Alfatihah, few doas (before & after eat, before & after entering toilet, etc) few short surahs, and he fasted for 17 days in Ramdahan! The outcome - Alhamdulillah.. hope he will be given hidayah to ease his learning in Islamic values and other subjects as well. And we feel that we did a right decision to send him there.

2) We had a splendid holiday- an east coast tour from KL-> Pahang->Terengganu-> Kelantan>Perak and back to KL. It was tiring, but it was fun. The thing that we did enjoy is the scenery along the way, kids tantrum, food, meet up with my cousin, beach holiday. Conclusion: It was awesome! Kids & us enjoyed it too.

3) A test for our family. Hubby, Aimaan & Ayesha was infected with dengue fever. Thank God I was not infected. It was really mentally & physically tough. And really, it was a challenging time for us, my parents. With Aimaan crying for the itchiness the whole night, he couldn't sleep & we couldn't sleep. It was really a tense moment. Ya Allah..only Allah knows how we feel. Stayed in hospital for 8 days.. (Hubby warded for 3 days, Aimaan 5 days & Ayesha 8 days). Pity little girl also don't know what's going on. Before they were admitted, we went to the emergency twice- the fever didn't subsided at all, and kids were send back home. Alhamdulillah- all of them recovered and may Allah protect us from this calamity again.

4) I tried my luck for a job (no, i didn't job hunt) - didn't really expect it, but I got the job. I tendered, again, I didn't expect my bosses will do the counter offer me. And I accept the counter offer. Maybe its written that I should work for few more years here, I suppose. Well, coincidently, another colleague of mine got job offer & he was also countered- offered. This lead to what i call- the worst experience in my working life. I cried and had a very bad headache because of this. Think its not worth writing about it. Let it flow out from my memories. But now, i am not talking to this person who scratched my working record. Don't.Care.

5) My hubby and I registered for hajj this year. Given date is 2040. Hope Allah ease our intention to perform hajj at young age. and this give me an idea..that we should save up money for our children so that the can perform hajj when they are young. Few of my friends performed hajj this year and this really inspires me to save more for hajj. Insya Allah... Harap dipermudahkan untuk menunaikan haji.

6) I was fortunate to know a well known Muslim family from USA. maybe blessed. Learned a lot from them and hope Allah give my family chance to get know more Muslim scholar families and be close to them.

7) My lil cutie pie is such a cutie. She can talk, can read, recognize letters (alphabets & hija'yah), colors, sing & dance. (also scream, showing creative tantrums , and a trickster) Masha Allah...Thank you Allah for the wonderful gifts- Aimaan & Ayesha.

8) I want to learn something.. I've registered for Arabic class, but till now there's no call from the centre, for a class group. I've surveyed the masters class, but can't decided what I want to take. I just need to learn something- my BFF is gonna obtain her PHD soon, insya Allah. It inspire me a lot. I just need to learn something.

9) I start to enjoy cooking. Especially when my kids & hubby love it, made me to cook at home more frequent- with love. Secret for a good food, cook with love & without anger & ikhlas . and besides that, if possible take wudu', cover your hair & do zikr while cooking. As for me, i will also make sure my nails are short. Cleanliness is the most importance.

10) I learned not to accept every knowledge/stories blindly. I also in learning process, not to entertain gossips, and I also learning to be more patience with my kids!!